only shooting stars break the mold

so, i've got about 7 weeks left before i go back.. hmmm.. wonder what i'll be doing when i get back home?!

a rough drafting of the 'to do list' would probably be: head to the salon, as reasonably soon as possible.. i now genuinely understand why my 'balikbayan' friends are so fussy about the salons when they get back.. gawd: i miss my monthly pampering! i mean, yeah, sure: i can do it myself and all, but it's more fun to just sit (or lay on my) back, relax and pay people to do their thing while you flip through zines and eventually doze off with the ipod.. (yessshuree!) and, omg: i can't wait to get back on my waxing treatments. *sigh!* geez: i mean, the razor's all right, but, we just can't stay friends long.. oh, the thought of a long term relationship with the razor: *cringe* just.not.possible. or so i think and say so. now. at this moment. (heeheehee!) and then of course, in any to do list of someone who's been out of commission for a while, there's the natural order of letting hand-picked pasalubongs find their way to their rightful owners. on top of that, a string of appointments would also be, naturally, in order when i get back to catch up and get into the groove of things.. *hyuk!hyuk!hyuk!* chismaxxx! omg! i just enjoy conversations so much better with the animated gestures, quirky facial expressions and darn.funny sound effects! and oh, the i.dont.need.to.say.it.for.you.to.know.what.im.thinking looks?! priceless. yeah: i miss miyako. and his family. and my family. and my fwends. *sigh!* then, reality will strike: what do i do next? enroll? (but where at? and which degree should i pick?) find and get back to work? (again, where and which school? i am thinking long term here. no more moving. i hope.) or should i just (stress) do both? i learned that i should be able to (gulp!) name my price when i reach that point of the interview (i have 2 pending).. but how do i know i'm not short-changing myself and not asking for too much? awkward.. and then, there's the house in pilar that's lying in wait. title was just under my name and my sister's name. thinking about the old, rickety house now makes me want to tear it down, then build it back up again. the place is kinda big, so i'm thinking of having 2 identical townhouses built, 3 stories tall. i have the place mapped out in my head. question is, when would be a good time? tearing it down, then building it back up, then having someone rent it out sounds like a plan.. and i'm sure it would be a pretty good investment.. but with the economy getting flushed, well, maybe the house planning can wait a few more months. or years. (not in my urgent to do list. hehehe!) then, there's also this art event that i want to organize when i get back. (whoot!) i've already started to get in touch with some contacts and knowing how i picked those contacts? well, i'm sure they're just waiting for a go signal before they move mountains. heeheehee! i'm sooo excited! i'm sure it'll be a blast! and gawd: i've already drawn a possible list of sponsors, and it's almost as good as done, soon as i get back! hahaha! the ADHD is going on overdrive: teacher na nag-a-advertising/pr/marketing nanaman.. it's getting me all giddy again!

oh well.. looking at this entry now, 'rough draft' would be an understatement.. but with 7more weeks before i get back with this on my plate? i'm sure to hit the ground running. :) can't wait!

toasty socks

i have not much to say today
have stretched the achies (well, lazies!)
till it popped like a snow pea, and *dang!* it felt good!

waved angst and frustration off as well
as i've decided that i'll let good ol' trusty karma deal with it
(yup ..karma manages to catch up and has never let me down.)

besides,
on a calm chill windy day like this
who would like to stay grumpy or gloomy?
life is good.. snuggle under the warm sheets and breathe in.

*aaaah!*

esep esep!

i was flipping through some of the channels and watched a rerun of a kardashian episode wherein the sisters both broke up with their respective men in the show. one of them even needed to see a therapist before the actual break up, so i thought, 'wow: this girl has issues. this is gonna be great!' hehehe! *kaboom!* reality tv gave me something to think about instead! ;D

therapist: "why isn't he doing what he's supposed to do to be with you?"

hmmmm.. well, this trip has got me thinking about a lot of things.. one of them being the part where i'm not going to settle for anything more, nor less, than what i want and deserve. and this applies to all aspects of my life.

admittedly, that's probably going to be tough, since i've always somewhat played the victim of a bully.. always settling for whatever they've got to offer, not really exerting much effort to fight for what i want. i have a tendency to avoid conflict, which would mean i would rather walk away, pretty much from everything, than cause an embarrassing scene.

well, i'm done running away. whether i'm right or wrong, i will need to stand my ground from now on. hmmm. i see tough times ahead.. oh well: it's about time to turn over a new leaf anyway. :)