esep esep!

i was flipping through some of the channels and watched a rerun of a kardashian episode wherein the sisters both broke up with their respective men in the show. one of them even needed to see a therapist before the actual break up, so i thought, 'wow: this girl has issues. this is gonna be great!' hehehe! *kaboom!* reality tv gave me something to think about instead! ;D

therapist: "why isn't he doing what he's supposed to do to be with you?"

hmmmm.. well, this trip has got me thinking about a lot of things.. one of them being the part where i'm not going to settle for anything more, nor less, than what i want and deserve. and this applies to all aspects of my life.

admittedly, that's probably going to be tough, since i've always somewhat played the victim of a bully.. always settling for whatever they've got to offer, not really exerting much effort to fight for what i want. i have a tendency to avoid conflict, which would mean i would rather walk away, pretty much from everything, than cause an embarrassing scene.

well, i'm done running away. whether i'm right or wrong, i will need to stand my ground from now on. hmmm. i see tough times ahead.. oh well: it's about time to turn over a new leaf anyway. :)