*good vibes*

"Look around you. Look at the influences you surround yourself with everyday. This is the pallete that colors you.

Love a man who sees you as a beautiful woman and you will grow old beautifully. Love a man who sees you as old and fat and that is what you'll be someday. Your environment changes you in profound ways. So, if you do not like how a place and a person makes you feel, if it is not in tune with your internal goals and aspirations, leave. Find the place and the people that supports the traits you want to nurture and be there, be among them.

Our choice lies in what we allow our destinies to be"

*taken from cecile's blog: www.ceciliabeltran.com

this is exactly why i'm so picky: i only need good vibes!

*about people: i've picked the scales off my eyes. since being able to see clearly, i am quietly screening and purposely getting rid of those who are eternally negative.. though it hurts that i have to pick and peel the leeches (that i apparently have gotten accustomed to) off me, i know it'll actually do me good,and prove to be a healthier life choice.

*of my environment: i naturally gravitate towards the happily positive. (no, jaded is a different one altogether) towards those who can be open and aware about everything that is happening around them. yes, there will always be some form of negativity everywhere, but if i see that it can stay optimistic in a sea of negativity? by gee, there i'll be!

*about myself: changes abound. paradigms shift. goals are refined.. and i have had only one constant.. i'm glad to have met my constant in miyako. my love, my hiding place. he knows of my strengths and weaknesses, my wants and my needs. he can anticipate what i'm craving for, what i'm frustratingly trying to express, even without me having to explain myself. he raises me up when i'm down, and constantly peppers me with praise when i'm feeling all begrudgy.. *sigh* i hope i'm giving him due justice by being the same to him!

hay naku: i love my miyako nga.
he's my positive vibe.

this is it

she's always been our hands down singer-composer.
and she has the song that says EXACTLY what i feel about him.

this is it.
my song.

Push
(Sarah Mclachlan)

Every time I look at you the world just melts away
All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections
You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am
And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land

You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe

I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe
No matter what I say or do 'cause you're to good to fight about it
Even when I have to push just to see how far you'll go
You wont stoop down to battle but you never turn to go

Your love is just the antidote when nothing else will cure me
There are times I cant decide when I cant tell up from down
You make me feel less crazy when otherwise I'd drown
But you pick me up and brush me off and tell me I'm OK
Sometimes thats just what we need to get us through the day