*good vibes*

"Look around you. Look at the influences you surround yourself with everyday. This is the pallete that colors you.

Love a man who sees you as a beautiful woman and you will grow old beautifully. Love a man who sees you as old and fat and that is what you'll be someday. Your environment changes you in profound ways. So, if you do not like how a place and a person makes you feel, if it is not in tune with your internal goals and aspirations, leave. Find the place and the people that supports the traits you want to nurture and be there, be among them.

Our choice lies in what we allow our destinies to be"

*taken from cecile's blog: www.ceciliabeltran.com

this is exactly why i'm so picky: i only need good vibes!

*about people: i've picked the scales off my eyes. since being able to see clearly, i am quietly screening and purposely getting rid of those who are eternally negative.. though it hurts that i have to pick and peel the leeches (that i apparently have gotten accustomed to) off me, i know it'll actually do me good,and prove to be a healthier life choice.

*of my environment: i naturally gravitate towards the happily positive. (no, jaded is a different one altogether) towards those who can be open and aware about everything that is happening around them. yes, there will always be some form of negativity everywhere, but if i see that it can stay optimistic in a sea of negativity? by gee, there i'll be!

*about myself: changes abound. paradigms shift. goals are refined.. and i have had only one constant.. i'm glad to have met my constant in miyako. my love, my hiding place. he knows of my strengths and weaknesses, my wants and my needs. he can anticipate what i'm craving for, what i'm frustratingly trying to express, even without me having to explain myself. he raises me up when i'm down, and constantly peppers me with praise when i'm feeling all begrudgy.. *sigh* i hope i'm giving him due justice by being the same to him!

hay naku: i love my miyako nga.
he's my positive vibe.

"..create in me a clean heart

..put a new and right spirit within me
cast me not away from your presence
and take not your holy spirit for me.."

as i pray for the strength to move
towards building and hoping for
the birth of a new beginning

i pray too,
that i have enough courage

to finally let go of the awkward past
to just look forward and face the present
and faithfully move on towards a better future.

let's start over.
clean slate.

*sigh*

life.

i can move on. *u*