looking glass

feeling frustrated, i realize it's because i care too much.
i get involved, even though i don't have to.
i feel, even though i don't need to.

i keep on getting in touch, even though i know it's disastrous.
my emotional vampire is again, here.

misery does love company.

you and i have been doing this dance over and over.
time and again. and yet we never seem to perfect it.
you treat me like crap, and i quietly take it.
i have stood by you since forever.
and you see no value in it.

this is no friendship.
you are akin to a drowning victim
flailing, hitting and harming people there to help you.

i see through your facade now.
and i know

it's time for me to step back
and just walk away.

i feel so sorry for you.
but most of all, i pity you.

i now join the growing class of people
whom you have hurt and turned away.
i have been enlightened by those who precede me.

i have been told
and i now know that things look better
and are much conducive and safer
when i'm on the outside
looking in.